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Things I want to hear from my psychiatrist


The problem with depression’s recovery is that it’s a long road

At first it’s okay, cause there is people around you, trying to help you, people who cares, people who ask you if you’re okay, if you want to go out with them, if you need to talk, people who pick up their…


"Y-you…you broke my arm!"

"Of course, I did. This man touched me. I asked him to stop. He did not. I could have done much worse."

Mera’s here, and she’s not putting up with your shit today.

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People with anxiety:

  • Know the worry is irrational
  • Want to calm down but can’t
  • Hate the fact that breathing feels like you are trying to breathe rocks instead of air
  • Feel like they are drowning and suffocating.  Telling them to just take a breath and calm down doesnt help.
  • Want to stop shaking but can’t control their limbs.
  • Just plain feel horrible and embarrassed.

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Instead of a Dark Lord, you would have a queen, not dark but beautiful and terrible as the dawn! Tempestuous as the sea, and stronger than the foundations of the earth! All shall love me and despair!

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talk about perspective. shit.

Fucking hell.

I remember the first time I saw a map of Africa to scale. My jaw dropped.


these are actually really intriguing. shoot me some.
  • 1:Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? Yes
  • 2:Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused? Taken and oh so happy
  • 3:What if I told you that you were pretty? I would smile and thank you for brightening my day
  • 4:Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? no but I guess Ive kind of said that before
  • 5:Are you interested in anyone right now? my boyfriend? 
  • 6:What are you looking forward to in the next week? Start of my holiday in FLORIDA
  • 7:Do you want to be single? I hopefully wont have to be ever again
  • 8:Did you go out or stay in last night? Stayed in
  • 9:How late did you stay up last night? Last time I remember looking at the clock 11.30 so probably about 12
  • 10:Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot? Yes, vividly
  • 11:Last three things you had to drink? Water, Chai Tea Latte and Diet Cola
  • 12:Have you pretended to like someone? Ive tricked myself into liking people before
  • 13:Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? no
  • 14:Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? yes
  • 15:Is it hard for you to get over someone? it would be
  • 16:Think back five months ago, were you single? nope :)
  • 17:What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? eating my lunch
  • 18:Hold hands with anyone this week? yup
  • 19:Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? probably could but I would kinda miss it I guess
  • 20:What would you name your future daughter? Alice
  • 21:Do you miss anyone? All the time
  • 22:Have you kissed three or more people in one night? no, Ive slapped three or more people in one night though
  • 23:Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? No 
  • 24:Are you good at hiding your feelings? Apparently not
  • 25:Have you ever cried from being so mad? Who hasnt
  • 26:Who did you last see in person? My mother
  • 27:Are you listening to music right now? Yes, MCR Black Parade
  • 28:What is something you currently want right now? His arms around me to protect me
  • 29:What is the last thing you said out lot? My dogs name and telling him to lie down and go to bed
  • 30:How is your heart lately? Bursting with love
  • 31:Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? not really
  • 32:Are you wearing socks? nope
  • 33:What do people call you? Hev, Dear, Sis, Potato Pancake, Flower
  • 34:Will you talk to the person you like tonight? Hopefully
  • 35:Are there any stressful situations in your life? Oh so many
  • 36:Who did you last share a bed with? My spring chicken
  • 37:Did you do something bad today? I made him sad because he had upset me
  • 38:When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? before i got my bus home 
  • 39:Do you get stressed out easily? I try not to
  • 40:Will you sing today? no
  • 41:Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? So much stuff
  • 42:Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone? My spring chicken
  • 43:Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? no
  • 44:What are you listening to right now? The hidden track blood on MCR Black Parade
  • 45:What is wrong with you right now? Whats right with me 
  • 46:What is on your wrists right now? Friendship bracelets, a peice of string, a hair bobble and a moonstone bracelet from my spring chicken
  • 47:Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? Primark
  • 48:What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider? Ive never had hot apple cider so hot chocolate
  • 49:Do you make wishes at 11:11? If I remember
  • 50:Are you a good artist? I think so 
  • 51:Love really is a beautiful thing huh? But so confusing and emotional and crazy 
  • 52:Do you miss the way things were six months ago? I was happier then
  • 53:Ever been on a golf cart? no
  • 54:Do you have trust issues? yes a little bit
  • 55:Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who? yes. Actually an old friend when he 1) started going out with his crush and 2) when he broke up with her
  • 56:Do you own something from Hot Topic? No but I would love to 
  • 57:Do you use chap stick? Yeah when I remember
  • 58:Have you ever slapped someone in the face? Yes deffinitley aha
  • 59:Do you have a little sister? I would say yes but he is actually a little brother :P
  • 60:Have you ever been to New York? When I was like 3
  • 61:Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? I really really hope he did 
  • 62:Have you hugged someone within the last week? I have indeed
  • 63:What were you doing at midnight last night? Falling asleep next to my love
  • 64:Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Yes but I wouldnt exactly call that mess a kiss aha
  • 65:Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Yes :)
  • 66:Were your last three kisses from the same person? Yup
  • 67:Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? Yes I have
  • 68:Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? Normally, alone. nowadays, with my spring chicken
  • 69:Will next Friday be a good one? Well ill be going to Florida at the weekend so yes, but no because I wont get to see my spring chicken for a week :(

In Response

I watched BriBrys video on Depression recently and found this comment. This was my reply. I hope I can reach people  who feel the same. (I have removed the username in case they did not wish it to be posted)

I hate that everyone seem to have a reason to why they are depressed. Because i don’t. I don’t have a reason. And that makes me feel worse. It makes me feel as though i’m being ungrateful for the things i do have, and the things i haven’t lost. It makes me feel stupid and even more worthless. It makes me feel alone and it makes me isolate myself because i feel like I don’t deserve any help because nothing has happened to me so i don’t even have a reason to be like this. 
It makes me believe that in fact i’m just being silly, and i’m just imagining the sadness. 
And i feel like i can’t tell anybody because they will just think i’m weird, or laugh, or tell me to get a grip on myself and just be happy. Because I can’t. I can’t just be happy.

HAPPYHULLABALOO: I just found this video and this comment and wow. I honestly thought I was the only one. I feel the exact same as you. I feel depressed for no particular reason. Maybe lots of little things but nothing largely dramatic or anything like that. I’ve only really confided in my boyfriend but even then I feel like he probably still thinks I’m being silly and overly emotional. And I have lost quite a few good friends recently from “not trying to be happy” and trying not to cause a hassle about being sad so I excluded myself. I mean I can’t exactly blame them for leaving. And I feel really bad about being so down and depressed because I know people that have far many more reasons. And recently I’ve started old habits. Of doing things to myself. I can’t even feel the pain when I do it, but I’m addicted to the feel of letting it out. And I could talk to my wonderful boyfriend but I have a real issue with bothering people and I’ve already upset him so much by doing this to myself and being generally sad so I feel like it isn’t fair for him to have to deal with all my sadness. So instead I just try and deal with it by myself which as you can imagine it isn’t very effective. The temptation is far too great when I’m by myself. And he has tried to distract me and allowed me to stay at his a lot so he can protect me but I guess even with the happiness he gives me my brain is still incredibly fragile and falls back into the darkness of depression so easily its scary. So I know exactly how you feel when you’re saying that you feel worse because this is how I’ve felt for a very long time and I’m glad I’m not the only one.





logic at its finest

This is stupid though ‘cuz she’s headed for the door. He’s going further into the elevator. Even if the door isn’t open, there’s still a bit of a ledge near the door that you could stand on while bracing yourself against the railing. Once the door opens, you’d be in a good spot to exit via the door as well. What she’s going for is smarter than what he’s doing.

Also she clings to the rail, he throws his hands up. If he were to fall, he’d have nothing to hang on to, she’d at least be able to hold herself up by the rail


Always remember to drink water. Not for weight loss or whatever, but to hydrate your organs, fuel your mind and boost your energy. Not to mention your mood will improve. your body will thank you

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